STRESSED!

always so stressfull living with ppl, i get paranoid that they are blaming me for everything that goes wrong, and worse of all is the threats of them moving out, i couldnt afford the rent then!

makes me not wanna bother with life if i cant even live somewhere... maybe i shouldgo back to the workforce later this year and just get a bedsit alone.

its just all so hard to deal with and im all alone now with noone to help me cope, like, i dont drive,iwouldnt be ableto move myself!


cant handle it, im trying SOOO hard nopt to break down.

:)

feeling good today, things are good.

Had my birthday party last night and it was rather cool, super heros and villains theme, some ppl didnt come coz of the weather and stuff, but thge ppl that did come made it awesome.

im feeling surrounded by love and its great. I feel so light and happy and like anything is possible. Im so thankfull when i find friends that help me feel this way, like we are old souls that just click.

if that makes any sense.

LOL!!!

just rediscovered my blogger account...
Fuck its odd looking back, at how young and stupid i was, i was such a conformist, i actually tried to fit in and all that. not that i thought i was at the time.

On a similar note, I found my old diary when i moved,from when i was like 10 till like 13. I lol'd so hard, all about boys and dramas,it really is an entertaining read.


so I'm turning 23 next week, guess I'm no longer a kid, not that I'm gonna stop acting like one. fuck responsibility and having your worth measured by your pay check, or by the car you drive. fuck it in the ass.

had weird dreams last night, first one was OK, tho ended up being another one in which i get stranded and spend ages trying to get home. The second one was messed up, like MAJORLY messed up. was like some kinda horror film set in a dodgy European village. still shook up from it. but like with most dreams i cant remember it completely in order, just the main themes. Had slavery, abduction, sexual assault, Frankenstein experiments, and for some reason i was Jewish...

any who, just thought id resurrect this blog.