my little sook.....

i seriously wanna drop out of tafe, coz everytime i talk or do anything to draw attention to myself inclass this girl mumbles arude things at me or mimicks me.
and all the other ppl in the cass refuse to admitt its happening, they all say it is because she likes me. but it is so painful, its crushing me, becaue every 1 loves her.
i am so lonely in this class al the ppl i was friends with have droped out, and my producer always tells me to shut up, i was telling this to a friend today and Holly (that chick) started muttering sumthing, like 'well mabey you should shut the fuck up then'. and my friend who isnt in the class noticed and was looking at me as if to say 'wtf?' yet all my classmates dont give a rats ass.
am i realy that worthless that she feels it is ok to treat me like shit, what does it realy prove anyway, i just cant understand what ive done to make her so hatfule of me and so hellbent on hurting me. i have had to ask my lecturer to stop putting me in her group and i moved desks, because they keep grouping me with her, even though they know what is going on, its like i am screaming and no one speaks my language, so the just think i am crazy.
i feel so worthless and patronised.
i cat take this treatment much longer, i have tried reasoning with her, i have given her gifts, triend to get to know her and i am out of ideas!
FUCK!

my weekend plans. etc.

so, i was gonna go to the show with some friends and dress up like we normaly do.
but bam bam pulled out coz he has to rehearse for some piano gig, ms. jay isnt going coz she is broke, and Boonie is not gonna get there till 6, and it will just be her stupid emo friends from broken hill with her, so that wouldnt be verry fun since they are all angsty and stuff.

so it looks like i will go with my little brothers and my mum, whitch is good i guess, coz mum will end up paying 4 food, so that helps on money matters, plus its good to see my family a bit, i barly do anymore. me and my little brothers have been becoming good friends latly because they are getting older and better to talk to. mum and me normaly fight, so i avoid seeing her, but it will good to *hopefully* have a good family day out.
and coz my bothers are older now, we can go on rides together. i dont have much money tho, so i hope mum will pay 4 me to get in, i will only be able to get 1 show bag, not sure what one yet...
they have a disney princess doll bag, i could get snow white.....
not sure!

oh! and i have got an audition for snow white, but i still dont know what song to sing for my audition....thinking either, omwhere over the rainbow, i'm nobodies baby or cheek to cheek? not sure. wish me luck!